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Amaku Yasashii Sekai de Ikiru ni wa Chapter 2
“Well then, Mother and Father are going to leave now. Stay in bed and rest, OK?” (Serena)
“Even though the doctor said that you seem fine right now, you need to be careful because you still have a slight fever.”(Alan)
“Okay. I understand…. Father, mother, good night.” (Doyle)
“We love you Doyle, good night.” (Father and Mother)
Father softly rubs my head, kisses his hand, and then gently brings it down onto my forehead. Mother leans down and kisses me on my forehead as well, issuing a soft sound. She urges the butler to watch over me carefully and prepares a table beside my bed with a glass of water and a bell to call for help if necessary. She leaves reluctantly, and the maid Meryl speaks to me.
“Well then, young master Doyle, we will be right outside the door. Please ring the bell or call if you require anything or need help.” (Meryl)
“Please stay in bed and rest. The Madam and Master will worry very much if something happens to you again.” (Meryl)
“Yes, I know.” (Doyle)
“Well then, we shall excuse ourselves.” (Meryl)
I say that while laughing in my mind, but I heard a sigh from her as Meryl and the maids leave.
Meryl has been with my mother since the time mother was declared a saint by the goddess, and I am quite weak when up against her as she has never stopped treating me like a child.
The way she treats me is similar to a mother bathing her child in unconditional and everlasting love. I wonder, is it because Meryl is not married and has no children? Maybe since she took part as much as my mother in raising me, she treats me as if I were her own child?
I get up from the bed and drink some water.
I feel a little bad, but to me who has lived 21 years in a previous life, this kind of pain and fever are nothing.
However, I remember that this was a fever that not even the recovery magic of the Saint could cure. I take that into consideration and go back to bed to rest.
I adjust my body and start to think about my future and my past.
You may be wondering why I would need to think about the future even though I am so privileged and loved. Well, this is because if I do not fix the mess I have gotten myself into, sooner or later I will experience an “accidental death” or be exiled from the kingdom. If you take a look at my life up to now, you will discover that I am play The Villain in a royal fantasy game or drama.
Well then, let us take a look at my life up to now. I have been violent towards pretty much everyone. I have bullied and harassed anyone who I did not like. I have incited numerous incidents regarding skill or level of skill (even though I am not particularly skilled in any case). I have harassed and bullied all the people who are more skillful than me. All of these examples of perfect behaviour have led my grandfather, both the former Duke Xeno Von Aghinis and former Hero of the Holy Lance, to dispute my father’s decision to have me inherit the title of Duke.
No matter how much my mother and father have done or the fact I am the only son of the Saint and current Hero of the Holy Lance, my grandfather’s voice has tremendous influence in the affairs of nobles and politics as he is the current Supreme Commander of the military.
Moreover, other nobles are in favour of this proposal due to my problematic behaviour having negatively affected their sons and daughters. Even my own mother and father, who are vehemently trying to defend me, are fighting an uphill battle as they know my behaviour has been terrible.
However, the support of my parents that comes from their affection and love and the support of my fiancee the third princess has lead to the delay of the proposal and my inevitable execution.
The voice of the third princess in particular has lead to the difference in opinion between the first prince and the king. Prince Wang and the king are the ones with the final say in this country, and if she did not have the power to stop both of them, I would have been long gone.
To be honest, both my parents and the princess think that this is just a rebellious phase I’m going through, you know? In one or two years, I will get it completely out of my system and turn into a hero.
As expected of the thinking of a Saint, Hero, and a kind princess. My parents both love each other a lot and love me, and the princess treats me quite dearly. She is my childhood friend, and let me confirm something for everyone, love is blind.
. . . You may think that someone who is in love with me, considering all the things I have done, to have absolutely no eyes for men, right? As a childhood friend, as a man, I want her to be happy forever, and this feeling will not change.
Another person to mention would be Gray, another childhood friend. He used to tell me to become one of his aides in the future, but as we grew older, we started to drift apart due to my problematic behavior. Now, my one and only friend in school is the third princess, and I think even this friendship is beginning to crumble.
With all this baggage, I will soon be going to attend higher education and as well as the coming of age ceremony while being unsure of whether or not my position as future Duke is secure. If my “problematic behaviour” continues, then I will either die by accident or by an unknown disease.
After all, if my position as future Duke is secure, I will officially change my name from Doyle to Doyle Von Aghinis during the coming of age ceremony.
It is quite common for children to die early in this world. Whether you are a noble or a commoner, you may die due to a number of different things. In this world, the most common cause of death is to be killed by demons, and there are very few people who are able to use healing or recovery magic.
The people who are able to use recovery magic are called Saints. They are considered national treasures and are protected by either the country or the church. Thus, many people are not able to have access to their services.
Due to the high rate of childhood mortality, the countries and kingdoms of this world have all declared that until you are 15 – 16 years old, you cannot inherit a title or family name.
Therefore, right now I am not the son of the Saint and the Duke Aghinis, but Doyle, the son of Serena and Alan. I have no authority. This also means that anything I have done as a child before my coming of age ceremony will have no implications on my future where I am still officially recognized as the future Duke and Hero of the Holy Lance. This also means that nothing I done have up to this point will reflect on my parents.
Nevertheless, it is impossible for parents to obey such an inheritance law. And in special cases, such as the princess or the king’s child who is in line for succession who are technically affected by it, still hold the authority attributed to their names.
Thus many parents send their children at the ages of eight to ten off to the academy. This is a place where nobles send their children to learn and be disciplined. However, it is not only available to the nobility as common people can also gain access. Common people who have talent and – or money can get their children into the academy.
To put it simply, the academy is a place that teaches noble children discipline and provides common children with a path to become an elite. For powerful nobles and people who have connections with these powerful nobles, they can apply for higher education. Common people who are accepted into higher education are guaranteed to become an elite in life.
The higher education portion at the academy provides a way for nobles to build connections and relations with other nobles. For common people, it is a way to learn the way of aristocratic society and learn the skills necessary to survive in this kind of world.
In short, even though my actions as a student have no official effect on my parents’ status or the household of the Duke Aghinis, I am still considered a full fledged representative of it and my actions reflect badly on my household.
So even if right now my actions have no official consequences, my father Alan, Slayer of the Demon Lord and Hero of the Holy Lance; my mother Serena, the Goddess’s chosen Saint; or even my grandfather Xeno, the military Supreme Commander, would not be able to escape from the trouble brought if I cause a big incident after my coming-of-age ceremony.
This is the reason my grandfather is opposed to the idea of me becoming the next heir of the household.
From what I have gathered, my grandfather expected me to live a life similar to my father’s, marry the princess, and help my childhood friend Prince Gray obtain the throne, clearing all and any enemies he may have in his path. But I had deviated from that path. A bit.
I understand the disappointment my grandfather must feel, as I am his only grandchild. His disappointment must be immense. He had personally taught me how to use the spear, always making time in his busy schedule to teach me how to wield and fight with one.
Even after that, he is against my succession as head of the household. This has not only been discussed recently, but rather for one or two years. My grandfather has not stood down from this mandate. I understand that no matter what I say now, I will not be able to dissuade him from his decision or change his impression of me.
To summarize, I am loved by the people around me, blessed by the environment and quite privileged.
After gathering my thoughts, I understand this to a very painful degree. Indeed, before I had remembered my previous life, the boy Doyle was connected by the love of the people around him and loved them as well. At the same time, he had found it difficult be worthy of that love and started to cause problems. He was aware of this, but it did not stop the noose from tightening around his neck. He was aware that his behavior would eventually lead to a situation quite like this.
So, here I stand. Even though I was aware of that love and kindness, I have always felt or thought that maybe I would lose it all if I did not live up to the expectations placed on me. Even though I understood, I still had to live up to the names that were engraved into my being. [Grandson of the Hero of the Holy Lance]. [Son of the Hero of the Holy Lance and Slayer of the Demon Lord ]. [Son of the Goddess chosen Saint ]. All these titles put an immense pressure on me.
I became a coward who wanted to run away from all these titles without even once trying to respond to the expectations that were placed on me. I did not try discussing it with my family to ask them if they truly wanted this for me and whether I could stop. The love they gave me brought me joy, but that love was also seen as a burden that weighed heavily on my mind.
So I ran away by doing stupid things, bullying people, and harassing them. I ran away to avoid the love, to avoid the expectations, and to avoid these titles. ,My heart was weak, and this caused me to see the light as darkness and try to avoid it, try to run away from it. This weakness in my heart clouded my vision and mind. It made me think the the light would abandon me and caused me to be feeble minded. I will not deny that my heart was weak and my own weakness caused me to take these actions.
First of all, Doyle, the original one, is quite better off than I make it sound above. Though, it is not on the level you would call him a cheat. I am the child of the Hero and Saint. I have a face with purple eyes, pale blond hair, and a well built body. My magical power is quite large, but my parents have said that it dwells deep within my body. My heroes in life are, and always will be, my parents, and I have never doubted that they would be victorious in life.
My excel academically, if I do say so myself. I am always ranked in the top 10. My body is trained to the extreme for my age.
My ability with a spear is passable, but when compared to what is expected of one with my titles, it is like comparing an ant to a honey badger. Many people have whispered about this fact, and I am also aware of it.
I would like to make a statement regarding this. Even though my skills are lacking, my performance with a spear is in the middle-upper ranks due to my genetics and the effort I’ve put into spear training.
After all, I have no talent for the spear despite being the third generation in a line of heroic spear users. I had learned a trick from a traveling adventurer to improve my performance when wielding a spear, but I will leave such a long story for another time.
I think you should understand about the world I live in now after discussing things like heroes, saints and last but not least, demons. Yes, the world I live in is filled with swords and magic. There are elves, dwarves, beast men, people called heroes, demons who cause trouble, dragons and spirits.
This is a fantasy world straight out of a manga or a light novel that has levels, magical powers, protections, skills and all those sort of things.
And even though this world sounds like a fantasy, life and death have the same meaning. The world is filled with many dangers and opportunities, and you may even get the chance to become a hero or be chosen as a saint by the goddess. As heroes and saints, you may receive wealth and protection from the kingdoms and religions that want you. There is also the demon king my father and mother had slain, which is a monster that appears once every few decades and sucks magical power out of the earth causing a trance-like drug induced feeling, cannibalism and wars to rage throughout the land. This existence is something only an individual exceeding level 100 can beat.
Furthermore, things called skills and magic have their own aptitudes. The level of your aptitudes will not change no matter how much effort you put in or how high of a level you have achieved. That is why nobles try to find people with high aptitude in skills, and they spend enormous amounts of money to raise them. To know which skills you have an aptitude for is a major advantage in life, and the sooner you find out, the better.
In my case, I was lucky to meet that adventurer who told me about my aptitudes, but I also despaired when he told me about my abysmal aptitude with the spear.
The fact that I had no aptitude for the spear was the most devastating thing I had ever learned in my life. I had also hoped that I had an aptitude for recovery magic, and even that was null and void.
According to the words of that adventurer, the weapon I have the most aptitude for is the sword, especially things like katanas and rapiers which specialize in speed and fast movement. Regarding this matter, I believe it is due to the fact that I trained in kendo in my previous life. Apparently my aptitude is at a level where I will be able to learn everything there is to know about the sword on only one year.
My magical aptitude does not lie in fire or thunder, but in water and wind at a genius level. He said that with my reservoir of magical power and diligent practice, I will be a person who leaves his name in history.
If I had listened to the adventurer and trained with a sword while learning water and wind magic, I could have avoided this entire mess. But I could not accept that reality and payed the adventurer to keep silent. I continued to train with the spear and learn fire and thunder magic for ten years straight without any gain.
The results of my ten years were exactly as that adventurer had predicted. I was better than the average person with a spear and was only little better than the average person at fire and thunder magic. Many people were disappointed with my performance, and then I ran away from reality.
“….How truly foolish, right?” (Doyle)
Now that I look back on it, I was truly foolish for doing this. I had been offered such an opportunity to be told of my aptitudes, but my pride insisted that I continue using the spear, wasting an entire decade of my life.
How foolish, but I can only think like this because I remembered my past life. I had grown more mentally in that one second than in an entire decade. I spent my entire childhood pointlessly pursuing something that I could not obtain.
You may be thinking that it is good that I remember now.
I am regretting a lot of things. When I think of the future, I can only sigh. Whether it is due to me remembering my past life or reflecting on my actions, I can to some degree accept my aptitudes.
Fortunately, the entrance ceremony and coming of age ceremony are two weeks away. My collapse postponed the decision to replace me as a duke. My mother told me that my grandfather postponed the decision when he learned of my collapse.
I used magic to eavesdrop on the conversation between my grandfather and my parents, and he told them to let me rest well I fully recover. This skill is called Whispering of the Wind and it is quite convenient.
“I am quite loved, aren’t I?” (Doyle)
Now that I think about it, my parents, who are still quite young, can disown me and just have another child. However, they have both continued to care for me, and even my grandfather has not suggested this, so it probably means that he cares for me.
If I was to give a reason as to why me remembering my past life is so important right now, it would be that I want to give back to those who love me.
The skills I currently have from practicing with a sword and wind magic are very useful and overpowered. My skill with wind magic allows me to hear conversations far away and pick up even the faintest of sounds.
In regards to my sword skills, there is one skill with the Iai stance where, if I use it on a person in about a two meter radius, I will strike a guaranteed hit. I am thankful to that adventurer for telling me about my aptitudes, and the me in desperation is now nothing but a memory.
If I hadn’t been so stubborn regarding the spear and my fire and thunder magic, I would have become a hero stronger than my father and grandfather combined.
Also, my rebellious phase did not make this situation any better.
“Anyway, I am fine with not inheriting the title of Duke of Aghinis, but I want to hold on to everything else that is mine right now.” (Doyle)
Well to sum up everything, I died in my previous life due to an unfortunate accident involving a truck and have now remembered all about it. Due to dying in that accident, I do not want to die in this life. I think it would be preferable to inherit the household, but if I am not allowed to do so, then that is fine as well.
I, like in my previous life, do not want a leadership role or want to be at the center. All I want is to live with my parents, and help those who believe in me and follow me. If all of this comes true, then I hope to find someone in my life who will love me, the same way my parents love each other.
This had been my mindset since I was young. I had stuck to the idea of being the Hero of the Holy Lance ever since I was small, but if I wanted to be a hero and be rewarded for it, I did not need the spear.
I am thankful that I have not done anything to cripple myself and ruin my chances before I remembered everything. But now that I have remembered everything, I will try to live seriously and maybe this will satisfy those around me and break my death flag.
“… Although I do not have much time, I want to at least try to it give a shot at the entrance ceremony.” (Doyle)
My last wish, before remembering my past life, was to pass the entrance ceremony. I will try my best to make the is wish come true. The examiner for the entrance ceremony is the first prince, and he took this role from a person called Lute Stap, a commoner, using his power as the crown prince. Lute was demoted to being the leader of the ceremony.
In the near future, the person who acts as the leader of the coming of age ceremony and the entrance ceremony will have a very large role in this country. I, who have caused so many problems, am not fit for such a role but Lute was. To obtain such a role is a great honor.
Although it is tradition to have the official leader of the ceremony perform this role, it is also an opportunity to turn my life around in one shot. If I have the chance to lead the ceremony. then I will grab this opportunity, and have Lute eat my dust.
“Lute, I will return the favour someday.”
After I say this line, I feel really sleepy. I go to my bed and lay my head on the pillow. The urge to sleep gets stronger, and I let it take over. I had one last thought before I lost consciousness. I wonder how many people have taken the time to seriously reflect on their entire life two weeks before the ceremony?